Working on getting all of my books online, following the closure of Loose-Id, Samhain, and Ellora’s Cave. Damn, it’s been a hard year! and left me with 33 novels without a publishing house. So, I am publishing them all myself…
All three of Koko’s current books in the A Little Bedtime Story/Van Zant Siblings-Julian and Liam series crossover are now available:
Koko is a Lolita J-Pop mega star, facing a Eurasian Tour after the death of her guardian. Mentally, physically, and emotionally not ready to face a grueling road trip, her doctors insist she renege on her professional obligations, but an attempt to delay the tour results in threats from her record label’s owner.
Julian Van Zant is an aging rock star who had one great experience in his life that outshone all others: an age-play relationship with a woman named Angélique. However, she fled for a normal vanilla life.
A chance encounter with a woman he knows only by reputation leaves him worried about her safety. When she offers him the chance of a lifetime to be both her travel companion and Daddy, it seems like he’s finally been given a second chance.
Will Koko’s learning that Julian and his brother Liam are a package deal ruin everything? And will once burned and far less-forgiving Liam be willing to risk his heart to the little who has the power to rip him to shreds?
Author’s Note: Although the protagonist, Koko, is well beyond the age of consent, she presents part time as a “little”; that is, she acts like a young girl. The sex in this series takes place between consenting adults, but those with a history of childhood sexual abuse or incest may find this triggering.
FIVE STAR REVIEW by Gabrielle Sally of Romance Reviews!
Apr 13, 2018 [ OFFICIAL REVIEW ]
Familiar with the parable of the “Prodigal Son,” seeing the title of Roxy Harte’s PRODIGAL SLAVE, I was instantly intrigued and knew I wanted to read it. Add in that this story takes place twenty years later, and there’s a much younger man involved, and my fingers commenced to tapping on the screen as the pages flipped by.
Reading this story, I almost feel as though I’m in Charlotte’s head. Her thoughts, insecurities, questioning are all very real and very typical of a divorcee in her forties with children. The idea of returning to a life she walked away from in order to have children, the seeming expectation that things wouldn’t have changed despite the amount of time long past, and the grappling that comes with the realization that our bodies have changed and we are no longer blessed with the vigors of youth.
Ms. Harte sets an unhurried pace to the story, which I found slow going at times but after having finished the story and gone back to re-read some parts, I understand why it was necessary and it works.
This story has a bit of everything. There’s the love story, redemption and second chances, bit of kink (BDSM), and relations involving two men (one much younger) and a woman. What’s not to like?
I will conclude by saying that there aren’t enough well-written stories with older female characters. Women in their forties and fifties (and beyond) still lead very vivacious and scintillating lives, yet authors (and many readers) seem insistent on sticking to late teens and early twenties. All that said, Ms. Harte’s story is all that and more. So if you love that your female (and male) characters are older and still as vibrant and sexy, then grab a copy of PRODIGAL SLAVE.
Available in ebook and print: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07CDDNZ9R
Okay, so you’ve decided you definitely want to try out or dive deeper into the DDLG Lifestyle…
For those of you uninitiated into this particular BDSM subset: DDLG stands for Daddy Dom Little Girl (Substitute Mommy or Caregiver, and Little Boy for multiple variations on the theme) You may find this article of interest: Understanding DDLG Relationships)
*As always I use male gender pronouns for Daddy and female for little because that is representative of my current dynamic.
You may be wondering just how to be your beautiful little self in public, or when you know you will be around people who have no idea you are in the lifestyle, or are totally clueless DDLG exists, and you don’t want to clue them in…
(Think grandma, your boss, your clergy, the lady at the checkout counter wondering if you are a pedophile)
You may be worried about accidentally regressing in a public place and need to have ways to blend in so as not to be obvious (I understand the concern. For me a PTSD Trigger or Random Panic Attack, or Garden Variety Anxiety kicks in and I’m suddenly clinging to an alternate reality and feel like I have one foot in both worlds.) Have a game plan in your mind for if the worst happens, how you can escape the situation until you are ready to deal with it.
If either of these headspaces Curious to Explore or Worried About Being Outed, feels authentic to you, it might be time to explore a few easy to incorporate practices that will subtly allow you to be little in public places that can become easier with time. Remember, start small, don’t panic, remember to breathe… and own your identity with pride (even if you’re being covert about it)
Keep in mind, everything from here on is merely suggestions or inspiration to be personalized by you based on your little-age and relationship status. If you are a single little, maybe seek out a community friendly caregiver to take you out or even a very close friend to be your accomplice.
Subtle Ways to be in Little Space and not clue in the world…
Getting ready to go out is hard! Daddy can help choose the outfit,
put on your shoes, and fix your hair. Of course you will probably try Daddy’s patience by dragging your feet and/or waiting until the last minute… and if Daddy doesn’t remind you to potty before you leave the house, he can’t get too angry when you immediately have to stop somewhere to potty. JS.
Always hold Daddy’s hand. If daddy forgets about hand holding, he can’t be surprised when bright and shiny, or yummy sweets distract you from whatever boring thing he is looking at and you walk away…
Ask for help opening and closing containers
Wait for help opening all doors, including car and store doors
Wait for Daddy to buckle your seatbelt, or remind you to do it
Singing, humming, carefree playing. Run, jump, skip, don’t step on any cracks…
Running normal errands and grocery store runs? Leave time for the toy section, book section, candy section, ice cream section.
Ask Daddy to order for you
Order off of the Kid’s Menu
Order off the regular menu but order Kid Friendly items like french fries or tater tots
Order a kid friendly drink: milk, juice, Hi-C, or a milkshake
Find yourself at a dinner party? Appetizers and Snacks Tables offer finger foods easily imagined as Little Offerings! (I’ve been known to only eat grapes and pretzels because I’m “finicky” …technically I’m not, but it’s an easy sell.)
Always be on the lookout for an Ice Cream or Frozen Yogurt Shop!
Always have quarters ready for the bubblegum machine! Or Daddy better have some spares!
Pull-ups under clothing
Onesie worn under clothing
T-shirts with animated characters: I have a few really old Sesame Street T-shirts featuring Big Bird and Cookie Monster, one from the World of Pooh, cause Eeyore (Vintage is in)
T-shirts from the Gaming World… anything from Mario and Tetra to World of Warcraft and Call of Duty Works (Gaming is cool)
Hoodies, Winter Hats, and Summer Ball Caps with Ears (I have every season covered)
Furry or Elf Ears (Not just for Renfairs or Conventions)
Plush anything (Tactile is everything, think soft, cuddly, warm)
Cute socks (these run the gamut from knee socks, cute cartoon characters to lacy anklets)
Always choose colors that make you feel younger…that may be pastels, or rainbow bright, or glittery, or varying shades of black. This is you claiming your version of little and it doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s version of little because You Do You best always!
Look for reasons to wear your Kigurumi anywhere and everywhere… Pub Crawls, 5-K races, Movie Premiere’s etc
Backpacks instead of a purse (This is a plus because backpacks come in every style and color imaginable. Dig animation? There is a backpack for that — fav cartoon character, Disney princess, or anime hero? Furry details? Glittery? Black leather and studs?)
Tiny, tiny purses…shop the kids section of any department store, or order from a specialty shop online
Bring along a stuffy or doll. If you are in college, this is easy peasy…claim your emotional support stuffy is easier to manage than keeping alive a support animal. If you hang out in boardrooms, this might be harder, but still doable. I’ve kept a doll from a Happy Meal for years.
Ink Pens with fun ink colors!
Pens/Pencils with Fun Toppers! (Bonus: no one will walk away with your unique item)
Stickers on Everything Everywhere… cause stickers
Hair bows, Fun Headbands, and Clips
Bubbles … keep a small bottle of bubbles in your purse to leave a little happy floating on the air wherever you go
Glitter … glitter on your face and body, in your hair, on paths … sprinkling glitter lets like minds no you are in the area
Playing at a park
Coloring outside sidewalks with chalk
Find a Local Coloring Club (or start one to meet once a week at a library, community center, or bookstore, because adult coloring books are big business and everyone needs stress relief!)
Join a role playing or reenactment group
Join or Create a Young Adult Book Club and mix classics like the Harry Potter series, with newer releases (if this becomes your personal project you can personalize even more with reading prizes and games to amp up the fun!)
Monthly Fun Field Trip! Go with your significant other, or friends who don’t even have to know your lifestyle to do a monthly activities like attend a Disney movie premier, go to the zoo, aquarium, laser tag, putt-putt golf, or nature center)
Bicycling! Discover your local biking trails!
Little Day is all about you from beginning to end and should include fun food, fun outing, and fun small treat (even if its just a $1. kid toy from the Dollar Store)
Some of my readers have asked if Koko or the Little Bedtime Stories series will have future books and the answer is yes!!
I am writing a fourth book for Koko: A LITTLE TEMPTATION
I am introducing two new littles…
The first will appear in Koko’s 4th book and *spoiler* she is the temptation. The question is who will be tempted by this fireball? Koko? Julian? Or Liam? And, oh no, is the menage a troi at risk…
I’m pleading the fifth. I’m only comfortable with one spoiler per blog post… sorry.
I am writing a new little!
Josie, a budding country singer, is rising up the charts with her singin
g duo partner and fiance Stephan, but he is a lying, cheating horndog who is trying to destroy her reputation so he can keep climbing the charts solo. So is there any wonder why she has A LITTLE RAGE ISSUE? I wonder if there is a sexy cowboy available to help her regress and enjoy life as a little while protecting her from Stephan and encouraging her to pursue her secret passions?
Interested in learning more about the subgroup of BDSM known as DDLG – Daddy Dom Little Girl (or Mommy, or Little Boys)? I wrote this article: Understanding DDLG Relationships
He waits for me. He insisted I take the train instead of driving, even though driving would have taken less than an hour. It was to be a journey separating myself from all that I was in the moments before I checked my baggage and stepped onto the train.
I’m a wreck. I chew a fingernail nervously, knowing as the train stops that this is it. There’s no turning back now. I close my eyes. Thinking? Praying? Remembering? I wonder what in the hell I was thinking to board this train.
He stands at baggage waiting for me and as I cross to him I don’t give a second thought to the fact that God, security and dozens of passengers are watching as I fall to my knees in front of him, tears streaming over my cheeks, my forehead bowed against his thighs. His hand wraps in my hair, pulling me to my feet, his lips gracing my forehead, whispering the words I’ve dreamed for two decades, “You have pleased me greatly this night, Cassiopeia.”
In the car his hand caresses my knee as he drives me to his home, the home we’d once shared. My gut clenches as I remember the fully equipped dungeon hidden away in his basement. As if reading my mind his hand slides higher, cupping my tingling pussy, sending shivers and more up my spine. “Glad to be going home, love?”
“Home is in Glenview,” I answer softly.
“No.” His firm tone implies anger, though the look he gives me is soft, regret-filled. “Home was never there—with him—you belong to me. You always have and always will. Do you forget you wear my mark?”
My thoughts fly to a night twenty years ago when he branded my right ass cheek with his mark—a filigree heart. Heat flares there as it always does when I consider it. Once, I belonged to François Rene de Hart.
“No, I’ve never forgotten.” I whisper, afraid of my own voice, adding even more softly, “Master.”
His smile tells me he is pleased with my answer and he pats my knee before reaching up to untie the belt cinching closed my camel trench coat. Parting the cloth, he reveals scant velvet and indecent swells of flesh. Damn those twenty pounds and then some…more likely thirty by the figure revealed in the mirror before I’d fled my bedroom.
Self-conscious, I scan the dark horizon beyond the car window, pulling my lip between my teeth in an effort to hold back my tears.
“Look at me, Cassiopeia.”
Hesitantly, I meet his eyes.
“First, welcome home.”
My mouth makes an “O” as I realize we are going through the imposing iron gates.
“Second, you are no longer the young girl I lost. You have grown into an incredibly beautiful woman. And third—”
His pause brings my gaze back around to his as he parks in the garage, the door automatically lowering behind us. Gentle fingers trace my jawline and pull me forward into him for a painfully gentle, excruciatingly long, well-practiced kiss. When he finally releases my lips, I barely manage to croak, “Third?”
“You will now be punished for running away.”
His answer is as short and abrupt as his exit from the car. Before I realize what he said, he is beside my door, opening it and helping me out, placing a firm hand on my elbow in case I harbor plans for escape.
Oh, hell. My mind races, my palms and armpits suddenly leaking buckets. Nervous chatter fills the air—me rambling. Arguments. “I don’t deserve this. I came running when you summoned me, didn’t I?” and “This was your fault. You knew my biological clock was ticking,” and the true moment of desperation, “Everyone has to grow up sooner or later. It was time for me to grow up and give up silly games.”
The last stopped him cold. We’d made it all the way to the final basement stair. He demands coldly, “Silly games?”
I stumble back a step.
His face, hidden in shadow, seems suddenly even more sinister with age than I’d remembered. It is the look he had once used to instill instant fear, but I am a mature woman now, intent on standing firm. It is all a game and to pretend otherwise is insanity. Twenty years has made me too old for games. I should have stayed in my safe, quiet neighborhood. But then, here I am, toe-to-toe and eye–to-eye with the man who’s filled the starring role in every fantasy I’ve invented over those same years. Frankie. My Frankie. My Master. The one man in my life who’d never harmed me—not mentally, physically or emotionally.
So why am I suddenly shaking in my four-inch heels? It was never a game. It was our life together. My mind flies back to the first time he led me down this same staircase.
“I’m afraid,” I whisper—same words, same trembling voice as then. “I don’t want any pain.”
Master’s face softens and I know he is remembering also.
“I promise I won’t do anything you don’t want me to do—anything you don’t need me to do.”
It is an echo, almost word for word, of the promise he’d made the night he introduced me to His World. His very real world. To him it was never a game at all. Suddenly, a lump fills my throat and tears are again streaming down my face. I fall to my knees for a second time in less than an hour, this time clutching his hand, pulling it to my lips. I kiss his fingers over and over again, sobbing, blubbering apologies, smearing tears and snot and spit over his knuckles until I can barely breathe.
Kneeling beside me, he pulls me into his arms. “God, I’ve missed you, Cassiopeia.”
A summons from the man she once called Master turns this soccer mom’s world upside down.
Recently divorced soccer mom and paralegal extraordinaire Charlotte Sullivan has a secret past life that returns to haunt her on her birthday in the form of a perfectly gift-wrapped, blood-red velvet bustier, followed by a summons from her once master, François Rene de Hart.
Pure lust awaits a mere train ride away, but she fears the journey may break more than her heart the second time around. With her twin teenage daughters in Europe for the summer, the opportunity to relive her youth with a man she once loved seems too good to be true. Curiosity and temptation win out over logic. It’s also a chance to be bad, and she hasn’t been bad in a very long time.
But more surprises are in store for Charlotte than merely a reunion and quick hook-up. François’ current lover, Pierre-Louis, is very much a part of his life, and if she wants to be truly reunited with her Master, she must learn to love the other man as well. The fact he is a much younger man is daunting to say the least.
My books A LITTLE INDULGENCE, A LITTLE IN DANGER, and A LITTLE KINKY ADVENTURE are based in the BDSM subworld of DDLG and although there are some similarities, there are many differences that make DDLG very distinctly different. Let’s dive into this mystical world of glitter and unicorns and see if we can answer all your burning questions. This acronym stands for Daddy Dom little girl, and no, not a biological parent role!
DDLG is a dynamic between two consensual adults, regardless of whether sex is part of the dynamic or not. This is where it starts to get a tiny bit more complicated, because some relationships are sexual, but some are not; some relationships involve age play; others involve age regression.
To understand either of these concepts more fully please follow the hyperlinks and don’t worry if the more you search for answers the more confusing the answers become. Even lifestylers of BDSM and DDLG disagree on whether age play is pretending or if even related to being little as most litles feel like they are channeling their inner child; and the more often they do so, the easier the practice becomes; until the slide between adult and little-space happens in the blink of an eye.
WHAT IS A LITTLE?
First off, little refers to a submissive personality type, who typically has some childlike (or tween, or teen) behaviors and mannerisms. Littles can be male or female, young, or old. I typically use the pronoun she because I reference of my own experiences. They are found in all walks of life, the woman you see jogging on your way into work; the cashier at the corner pharmacy; the banker, police officer, or even president of the company where you work. A little may like bubblegum, pastel dresses, and still be drawn to cartoons. She might enjoy being called baby, or princess, or little one. She might also be at the far end of the spectrum and have a closet full of black everything, from the most delicate camisole to the heavy soles of a pair of combat boots.
Perhaps you can admit you’ve been aware for a while that you were wired slightly differently than your peers. Labels like immature, needy, childish, sensitive, naïve, careless, klutzy, and ditzy seem to be thrown at Littles like those qualities are a negatives. I am here to assure you, that you would thrive in a DDLG relationship. There are two types of Daddy Dom little girl relationships. The first type is Caregiver. A Caregiver-little relationship is non-sexual and completely platonic. The second type is sexual between the Daddy Dom and little. For purposes of this article I am going to solely focus on a sexual DDLG relationship, which has two distinct parts. The playful parts and the sexy parts.
Littles may or may not submit in a traditional sense. Typically littles are passive and/or fragile/needy by nature; sometimes whiny or bratty; sometimes difficult to control, and that is what makes the role of Daddy so important. In DDLG, the little behaves(obeys) rather than solely submits to. Her acquiescence to rules is based on meeting her desires, her needs, and her well-being first and foremost; only after are the Daddy Doms wants and needs met.
What is a Daddy? (There are also Mommy/Little relationships!)
Typically in the DDLG relationship, the Daddy is a Daddy Dom, a variation of a more traditional BDSM dominant role. I often refer to Daddy Doms as the kinder, gentler version of a Dom, but this is not fact, merely based on my own experiences. The Daddy Dom will see his sub as little and view his role as keeper, guide, mentor, caretaker, chief spoiler and will have certain expectations of his charge/sexual partner based on the type of relationship hi little desires.
In DDLG, the little submits but her submission in based on meeting her desires, her needs, and her well-being first and foremost; only after are the Daddy Doms wants and needs met. Daddy’s are not cookie-cutter variety although they have many similarities. They nurture by nature, as if they are genetically wired to prefer caring, sheltering, mentoring and indulging to discipline. They may lay down many rules or few. Again, the relationship is based on the little’s needs and most know and accept that their littles can be very demanding, so patience, understanding, and compassion are the type of personality traits required.Most littles will ask to be supervised, managed, and disciplined. There might or might not be elements of BDSM beyond the typical disciplines, which would be discussed and agreed to during the negotiation process. The only note here I would add is that most littles need built up, not torn down. Most littles are fragile and often recovering from years of self-esteem issues and many have suffered neglect, if not outright abuse and are recovering. All kink activities will fall under the list of hard and soft limits. Hardcore BDSM techniques such as degradation or humiliation are typically not present.
What is DDLG Playtime?
First, make a list of activities you love to do and do well. Drawing, painting, coloring, singing, dancing, running, even going to the gym could become the support system your little needs. The goal is to give yourself permission to spoil yourself with “It’s All About Me Time!” These are all opportunities to coax out your younger more playful self. You will discover as you delve deeper in the lifestyle that some days are much harder to draw out your little than others. Adult worries: bills, school/work expectations, obligations. Also for mommy’s and daddy’s that are also trying to be little with their partner as well as parent may find the task daunting. The trick is to relax and try to let play flow naturally. If you find this part especially difficult, the difficulty may lay in embarrassment or a deeper seated issue that you may need to mentally work through. However, if it is just the adult thoughts on your mind are making it hard to escape. Remember that your brain is a muscle and it can be trained to respond when you are ready to seek out little-space.
I’m fairly certain your chosen Daddy is more than willing to help you explore and define your Playtime Little Identity. Try a bubble bath. The key is for your partner to remain clothed. He can help you bathe, wash your hair, laugh at your bubble beards… Try coloring and watching cartoons….
What is DDLG Sexy Time Like?
Many Daddies will continue to us playful names baby, babygirl, little one, sweetheart, bunny, kitten, princess..ect. Many littles will continue to call their partners Daddy, but some may revert to Sir. Anatomical parts will sometimes fall under the umbrella term princess parts or Daddy parts, and activities will have cutesy or kawaii labels.
Just like discovering you and your Daddy’s dynamic can only be defined by the activities that your inner little will enjoy and no two play identities are exactly the same, ditto that times a hundred when it comes to defining your Sexual Little identity. Most important, give yourself permission to explore this part of you thoroughly. Thankfully, you have entered into a fairly well structured world and the BDSM world is a huge place indeed, but don’t worry, those who have come before you have left behind the tools of the lifestyle.
Create the Rules or Guidelines for your relationship.
First up, the DDLG Scene Negotiation Form. On this form you will clarify whether your little is a princess, or bratty, or subbie. You might be some combination of all three that may evolve as you get more comfortable with your role. Most DDLG relationships have some form of BDSM play, even if in its most mild form like affirmation writing, called “Lines” and considered a punishment or a growth tool. You might prefer to initially go through the list of choices alone and then review with your Daddy or you may want to go through and check activities together. Basically you are telling your new partner what activities you will or will not be willing to participate in, these will be called your “hard” and “soft limits.”
You will also establish a safe word with your partner. I prefer a traffic light system. Green means you feel safe and secure, Yellow means you are nervous and possibly afraid, letting your partner know to proceed with caution, maybe even take a time out to talk about the activity to determine what part of what you are participating in is making you nervous; Red means everything stops because you are at your limit, and that can be mentally, physically, or emotionally.
Remember, using your safewords, helps you and your partner build a deeper level of trust and understanding about each other.